Sep 10 2008
Learning processes
I think I have come at that crossroads in life where I should stop, look back, and make a list of the learning experience so far. What have I learned in this journey?
I have learned to wait patiently, without thinking of a future, as I realize now more than ever that the present time is all we have. I have learned to listen beyond the mere surface of words. People do not always say what they mean, or mean what they say, and they seldom recognize the difference. I have learned to neglect my instinct, preferring to dive into a wild ocean than look at it from a safe distance. Untimely bravery has cost me more tears, but most of the time it has been worth it. I have learned to believe good things are possible, even when they do not last, for reasons that escape me. I have learned to love myself a little more, and that has allowed me to love others for what they are instead of what I would like them to be. However, I have also learned that love is a relative term universally overstated into an absolute goal we should all aim for. It is this paradox that feeds most romantic literature, and who would not want to have (or be) a young Werther at some point? I have learned that suffering is not an enhancer or a leveler, but sometimes it can be a dysfunction that elicits a crippling self-pity. I have learned that trust is not a given, even if for me it is a must. Trust should be earned, and working for it is a rewarding task if the objective is reached. I have learned that life is made of uncertainty, and yet we plan around it as if time were granted to us without question.
I am full of doubt, hence I exist. I have not learned anything yet, but I may have understood. I must go on.
